So there I was, flying around as what I can only describe as a bright star like mass of consciousness. I’m not even sure that I could see myself, but there were many around me, and they appeared as specs of light, or at least, they were radiating light, much like a star.
I was self aware in my star like form, perhaps I was in the natural form of the soul, In fact, that’s the best way to describe it…There I was in my most basic form of individual existence, star like in appearance, flying about, outside of reality as it is perceived via my human senses.
Now the medium in which we were in, I guess you could call it space, but it was not a space with planets or structures…or anything at all really, as far as I can recall. It was just us, and a lot of us in a seemingly empty space.
Now here’s the thing, as we were flying around, carefree, aware of ourselves, and unrestricted by direction or even convention, we would join with other individual beings of consciousness, connecting our selves in a spiralling dance of energy.
Every time we would connect with other individual beings of consciousness, as we flew around, we would experience the greatest sensation, being the feeling of intense love.
Within our connections, we would create worlds of which we would then live through physical beings that we would simply think up together. Those worlds were simply manifestations of our intentions and energy, they were fun, competitive at times, fulfilling at other times, enjoyable and most of all, places in which we could create and enjoy unbound experiences.
There did not seem to be any limit on what we could do, and when we became disinterested, or had enough, we simply disengaged from our connection, and were once again in a state of conscious being, flying around in anticipation for next connection.
One thing that stood out from the above recollected experience, is that at the point of disconnecting from another soul. I felt the withdrawal of the energy from that soul and as such, that feeling of intense love, which I have described above, was gone in an instant.
However, there was no sense of loss and that is due to the fact that that wonderful feeling of expansive connection, was not rare or hard to find. Such connection, and as a consequence, that wonderful experience of soulful expansion which we describe as ‘love’, was not held as sacred or even all that significant. As such, we didn’t fear losing it, chase it, become slaves to it, or in any way, risk being hurt or trapped by it. The feeling of love was merely a consequence of what we were doing naturally in that state.
I actually clearly remember thinking to myself, ‘Oh no, I’ve lost that feeling of love’ the first time I had disconnected from a soulful connection, before instantly realising that opportunities for connection were not limited and therefore realising I’d lost nothing.
The realities we created within our imaginative consciousness whilst connected, included worlds, plants, creatures, and all sorts of other stuff one could imagine…as we would literally be imagining these realities into being. They were as real as this reality we share where you are reading this article. In fact, I now understand that this reality, is simply just another reality, being created by a collective consciousness of souls.
The only difference being that it would appear that the creators of this reality, have placed so much significance upon it, that they have forgotten who and what they are, and therefore have become trapped within the constructs of this reality, unable to let go of it, or each other. Anyone born into this reality, whether they have been part of it for many life experiences, or new to it as I feel I am, have to contend with the conditioning of the humanity, which in many societies, focuses one’s mind into ignorance and lower levels of awareness.
Perhaps the extent of this narrow vision exists at different levels across different species of life form within this reality, but that is the crux of it.
It is worth mentioning that at the time I had this experience, first hand in the state of being of just a pure spec of consciousness, outside of any physical reality, it was a time in which I did not hold any attachments, to either my own life on this planet, or belongings, or even ideas. I accepted myself, I accepted all that around me, I lived fully in the moment and was free from all emotional or physical attachment. It was under those conditions that one night whilst meditating, I simply left this collective consciousness and found myself outside of all the constructs of this reality.
Now during my experience, interestingly, I remember at some point, all of a sudden being aware of a very painful pinching sensation in one of my human legs, which brought my entire focus back to the this world, and I journeyed back to my human body and this reality. For this journey I stayed aware the whole time and what i recall was the following.
My consciousness went through various states, not all of which I can now recall but one thing I do recall clearly was my human mind creating a series of dreams, which were representative my out of world interactions. Although I had full recollection of the whole experience, the dreams were the way in which one part of my consciousness could relay, through metaphoric dreams, all of the communications that I had undertaken.
I always had many different types of dreams, from vivid precognitive dreams, to premonitions, to vivid dreams where I have had conversations with souls that are no longer living among us in physical form, however, my level of awareness on this occasion allowed me to fully perceive the processes and reasons for the dreams that unfolded on this particular occasion.
There were various layers and states I went through before I opened my eyes back into this reality and I was able to consciously observed all of them clearly from a third perspective of sorts. Now usually, I’ll wake up and remember a dream, but what I’m saying here is that I saw behind the curtain on this occasion, as to how those dreams were formed and why they were formed.
As I am writing this, I also recall with a sense of humorous reminiscing, the fact that my very quick descent back into this reality, must have come at a time of being connected with another soul, because not only did I come back, I had pulled another soul into this reality…or perhaps, that soul had connected to me and through one method or another, sent me back here whilst being attached. This was marked by an intense migraine occurring not long after waking, which felt as if the boundaries of my human physical state was being pushed to their limit due to energy overloading. At first I did not understanding I had a friend within me causing this, but it became clear over time. There is a very beautiful story of what started to immediately unfold upon my waking up and continued for a couple of days afterward. I will write and publish that story in the short stories section under the title, Beyond Reality & Back, and provide a link here once published.
Ultimately, what I learnt from the overall experience of being in my purest state of conscious individualism, as a soul in a field of souls is that, this reality of physical things, is insignificant and that it is the significance that we give to this reality or the events that occur within it, that dictate as to how attached to reality our conscious selves become.
The more attached to anything we become, the more we focus our energy into it and as a consequence, the narrower our field of conscious awareness becomes.
If you are seeking to expand your awareness, stop focusing on what you think, or feel is significant and as a consequence, your awareness will naturally expand. It really is that simply in effect. The difficult part is accepting the insignificance of all around you in the larger scheme of things. And from experience I can tell you, the scheme of things is far greater than anything within this timescaped reality that we share here.
I also learnt, that we, as humans, misunderstand what love is. We see love as a primary thing that exists in its own right, instead of the feeling which comes as a consequence of conscious connection at the deepest levels to another. The feeling of Love is a consequence of connection, not the other way around. The feeling of love comes about by the expansion of our energetic centre when we are in a state that allows the flow of external energy from another source, into and through us. I guess that source could be another individual or that of the greater consciousness from which our consciousness is derived from and always within or a part of.
Another way to explain what I am trying to express is this. Think about people that recall a near death experience, a lot of the times they will say, I was in a place surrounded by pure love and love was everywhere. This is a misunderstanding of what is occurring. What is actually occurring is that their conscious awareness is within a field of conscious energy which is so open and flowing, that their very souls are being connectively expanded through the flow of open conscious energy, which results in such a wonderful expansive feeling, i.e Love. They think that they are surrounded by that feeling but that feeling comes from within and is a consequence of connection.
I’m not too sure that I am adequately articulating the ‘reality’ of what love is, however, I think it important to make the attempt because understanding what it is, whilst living through our human or animalistic form, can help us understand ourselves better and ultimately free us from forming mental constructs of perceived significance that ultimately act toward us closing ourselves to connection through unwarranted fears that we develop. I leave it at that for now.
I hope through this, that you will either find confirmation of your own experiences and recollections or be inspired toward opening one’s mind toward a greater level of awareness and as such, a much broader and satisfying experience of existence, whether within this reality, or outside of it.
